Often, many people ask me why am I so afraid of being in a relationship..
Why?
Its great being in one, it also have its bad side..
Even when i was a player,
I have never cheated on a girl..
The thought of it has never crossed my mind..
I never thought it would be possible..
I never thought it would be possible..
Until i met 3 girls,
one after another.
And all 3 cheated on me..
yup,
you heard me right..
ALL fucking 3..
Stretching from Sec 4 to 1st year poly...
So why am i still afraid?
Go figure..
Its only natural..
I got super trumatised by it..
I donno what was wrong with me..
I refuse to blame the girl..
I always thought it was me..
Something's wrong..
Something's not right..
And do you all know how it feels when you see your loved one in the arms of another guy?
I bet you wont really feel it if it happens to you once..
But after 3 times,
You can really feel it..
I saw both my ex-gf's holding hands and kissing the other guy..
Yeah i saw..
I was sad, angry, disappointed.
I went up to her and said..
So..Your cousin?
Wait..He's your brother..
*blank look*
I'd just walk away..
It's all a learning experience..
You pick up the good ones..
You filter the bad ones..
You bring it on to your next relationship..
And that was why, when you asked..
Why did i go into a relationship with this girl named Mira,
You realised I had no doubts about her..
You realised I have no trouble trusting her..
You realised I understand her more than i understand you..
Did you know that many guys oogle at my gf?
And how I'd say,
Of course. You're the most beautiful girl, why shouldnt they?
We take it as a light hearted joke..
And, why i was mad when guys oogled at you last time?
It was how you told me..
How your tone went..
And how stargazed you were..
Hint,
You're a flirticious bitch..
It's not wrong..
You need to have a lil bit of flirting to keep it fresh..
But yours was different..
So please..
Leave me alone..
I was totally over you..
The first time I saw you with that Mad Cap Local rapper..
Ladies and Gentlement..
That explains why i have a lil' problem with local hip-hoppers
They're good friends, but pretty bad in relationship..
You steal..
You backstabbed..
You cheat..
So you read this well..
Get it in ur hollow head..
Me and Mira have got this special thing going on..
And even that, i dare not let my walls down entirely..
But what i share with her is unconditional love for each other..
good conversations, great understanding and a strong bond
So you see,
you have sorta distorted my belief in trust..
not tilll i met Mira..
And yes..
I pray that i don get cheated on..duh
And for her to tell me that she has no feelings for me rather than cheating behind my back is way better..
Mira, that explains why i get a lil' paranoid at times..
Please..
I beg you..
There is nothing you can do to convince me you've changed..
Lose my URL..
And yes..
Do you remember what you told me that night 4 years ago?
You said all females lie to their partners..
You said how could it ever be just us two..
Think about it..
posted @ 1:29 AM |